Today is another day, a saddening day. My life is like, a guitar with a broken string, a tree without any leaves, a house without a roof top. It's so IMPERFECT and SUCKS TTM. I know life has ups and downs, we can learn more if we fall. Tearing has become a habit of me. I need to go through it everyday. This is not what I want. Do you guys think that I'm a robot? Seriously, I'm not as strong as like what you people have thought. I can face you guys happily while my heart is burning like hell. I believe no one could understand how I feel. Every night, I told myself, "Everything's gonna be alright tomorrow. Hang on.". But I said it with my tears rolling down the cheeks as I know there'll be things happening everyday for sure. Whenever I told someone, "Nothing, I'm fine". I said it with a knife piercing into my heart. The pain, the fear, the sorrows in me.... No one would really understand. NO ONE WILL. I've been living in the darkness. There's no sunlight for me. I'm an owl, I live in darkness.Who can actually save me out from the darkness and give me some sunlight? Who will? I don't know. This world is scary too. No one will ever know the intention of someone befriended with you, be it in a good or bad way. Some people could just treat you damn fucking good infront of you, comforting you when you're sad, giving you advices whenever you need to, lend you listening ears whenever you need to..... But you never know what they have done behind you. They can just backstab you easily. Friends, you can have alot alot alot. However, if come to true friends, I shall see how many you guys have. True friends is uncommon nowadays. If you happen to have a few, you're lucky, please do treasure and cherish it. True friends are, they'll be by your side unconditionally when you need them. True friends are, they wouldnt spill your secrets or your probs to others when you told them about it. True friends are, they will never ever backstab you. These kind of friends, hardly can find. As I said, the world is indeed scary. FULL OF 2-FACED PEOPLE. beware, beware and beware. Anyway , I can simply FML.